September 6, 2007

  • Sankofa

    Things change and I must accept them and adapt, or refuse them and move on.  There is something that I don't like that is part of something I love.  I have 3 choices:
        1.) Accept the negative in order to not reject the positive
        2.) Reject the negative and lose the positive
        3.) Accept the whole thing in it's entirety and realize that my attachment to the part I love can no longer be as intense and as strong as it was because it is now 'tainted' (for          a lack of a better word).

    I have to remember the past because it helps me deal with the present and prepare for the future.  In reading some of my previous posts, I realized that Flaco's untimely passing and my response to it prepared me for my response mode Memorial Day Weekend 2006. 

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    I am beat but not broken, weary but not worn,
    dealing with many things I feel but not shown.
    I often wonder how my story will finish -
    Strong and Determined or Weak and Diminshed?
    I can't be just one thing - that's so limited
    I have to be more ,but right now I'm just not feeling it.
    So what do I do?  Continue in Auto-Pilot?
    Nah - you know me.  I'ma fight it.
    But I need help..........