October 19, 2007

  • Just Being

    I'm losing weight.  NOT A GOOD LOOK.  I know why and I know what I need to do.

    I
    just
    don't
    want
    to
    do
    anything.

    For the most part, I'm unmotivated to do anything but nothing.  I'm eating junk food or whatever looks good at the moment to satiate my appetite at that particular moment.  I eat one meal a day because I know I need something, but I have no desire to do much of anything, including eat. 

    I focus on other things so that I don't have to focus on me.  That is my nature - I've seen it over and over in my behavior for the past few years.  My S/hero told me to put 10% of the energy I'm putting into another situation into ME (she knows my tendencies).

    Truth is, I'm running on Life Auto-Pilot.  I do just enough to stay under the radar.  I attend just enough outings to have a little fun.  Every chance I get, I either veg out on the couch or sleep. 

    I haven't completely lost it.  I know I need help, and I've attempted in the past but it wasn't to my liking.  I'm reaching out again and hoping that I can be more open and receiving this time around.

Comments (5)

  • I've never heard of a sista COMplaining about losing weight...

  • I'm with ATLiens. Plus I think I'm actually gaining it. How sad is that? Either way, get healthy. I hope all gets well with you.

    Yes, I'm somewhat around. Peace.

  • I tried to comment on this earlier but it obviously did not work.

    Anyway-

    I do the same thing when I am truly stressed/depressed.  I can't eat anything. Ever.  The day will pass me by and I just pick at some fruit or something just because I know I should eat.

    I'll be praying that you are more open and receiving this time . . .

    *hug*

  • Yeah I agree with kcheval, I go through those phases myself. I hope that you are able to find the help that you're looking for....

    RYC: Did/Do you live in the Tampa area? Of course, when reading the fine print, I noticed that the place I went to offers a 5 day rain guarantee. With the way things are looking outside right now, I might be taking advantage of that VERY soon. Thanks so much for the tip..I wouldn't have known to look for that if you hadn't said something. :)

  • I'll be serious after this sentence-I'm sooooooo jealous you can eat junk food and not gain weight.  I drink air and get extra hips. 

    Okay-but seriously-I know how that feels to focus on other things so you don't have time to focus on yourself-I tend to that ALOT. If you think you need help-try to be open to it and not over analyze the help you're getting.

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